Wednesday, July 27
watched a bit of charmed on tv after getting home from the clinic. going to see the chinese doctor tmr after school. all the western doctors ever do is give you more medicine, and i'm tired of feeling like a pillbox. really tired for no good reason. walked up the overhead bridge and ended up panting. pathetic. just. exhausted. slept 8 hours last night, got no work done. feeling darned cold. the fan and air-con are switched off. trouble breathing. maybe this diet thing is a bad idea. even though i lost about 2 kg in 1 1/2 weeks. guess it is kinda drastic, but i'm the sort of person who puts on and loses weight quickly. still, i'll take that medicine to induce precipitation after i see the chinese doctor. argh stupid splitting headache.
i'm getting a hamster!!!! =D =D =D after more than 2 years. i remember crying my eyes out when brat died. well i'm going to get another hamster and name it pookie, the way i always wanted to. finally convinced my mum while waiting at the clinic that i'm sad and lonely and depressed because all my friends are MIA and janet's attached. besides, maybe i'll be inspired to come home if there's actually something to come home to? something to take care of and love, and be utterly, entirely mine. then i can talk to it!! =D yay! i shall go pick one out soon. =D and keep it near me and love it and i'll never be alone and sad ever again. :)
finding it hard to eat nowadays. forced half a bowl of porridge down my throat but felt nauseous. decided to eat some biscuits. very very full now. all this for - what? i don't know how my sister can stand it. i look at the way i eat and i feel sick. but i guess this is the only way to achieve what i set out to do.
it must've been love.
9:11 pm
xoxo
